My Life has gotten sooo boring as of late

So hey to all reading this, recently since father's day was today... well yesterday since it's passed midnight. I rethought about my life, since my father died when i was 10, which was a big turning point in my life. I'm now 17 and the past 17 years have been unbelieveable.

Well when i was around 12 or 13 i started living within my own head, i would make up these other lives in my head and would tell myself that was my life, that this world and life i lived in was some kind dream or trap i was stuck in. All of my other lives were spectactular, never boring or dull. Always involing a sense of magic or having to be strong. Back then i could make these lives seem so real that i could feel everything but now even if i try i cant make it feel like it did then, my logic just wont let me attempt such wonder anymore.

So when i was 13 i started getting into Whitchcraft or magic because i wanted that sense of wonder, that unreal kind of life. I mean it worked to a point, it made me feel more powerful in some ways but it never did anything.

But now these days, well after a few years of hell in my real home life (it's a long story) but now life is so normal and boring, there's no sense of wonder or unreal amazment. From now on i'm going to attempt to bring back the sense of unreal wonder in my life, maybe my imagination can work alittle harder to bring fake to real world, i dont dont know but i'm gonna try, might be alot of fun really lol.

*Danny* <333